Everyone has a different definition of the walk of shame. Mine is simple, it is finishing a run with a walk due to poor run fuel management as opposed to finishing strong. I did it again twice this weekend.
Saturday morning was the Route 66 10K in Edwardsville IL. My wife and I had been running the course for several weeks leading up to the race with a group of runners that met at one of our local running stores, RunWell. Having ran the course numerous times leading up to the race I had a fairly good idea of when and how to fuel. So when my CGM (continuous glucose monitor) by Dexcom went to question marks at the first mile I wasn’t too worried. I took one GU energy gel at the start of the race; my sugar was running good for the start of a race 175. At mile four I started to have issues with my blood sugar, i could feel my sugar dropping. All of the warning signs were there. Without my CGM functioning properly and not having a standard glucometer I had to guess where my sugar was at and finish the run. I took one more GU and no insulin; I headed off to finish the race. It was a run/walk to the finish, I didn’t have a full walk of shame but it felt like it. I even visited the ambulance that was on standby to get my sugar checked. It was 138; by this time I was feeling better and able to go out and run my wife in to finish the race. Needless to say she had a great race and mine wasn’t so great.
Sunday afternoon I went for a three mile run. Sugar was around 130 when I started. Two miles in I dropped to 57. I had to walk home. That is the walk of shame I can’t stand. Everyone in town knows how passionate I am about running, Having them see me walk home can be embarrassing; especially when I have to start at one end and go clear across town to get home; 1 mile is clear across town but a lot of eyes still see you.
As experienced as I am as a runner and after having dealt with the diabetes for as long as I have it is very frustrating to have to stop a run because I misjudge what I need to do to get through a run. I do know at this point I need to drop my basal rates in my Omnipod Insulin pump.
Some day I will learn how to deal with the walk of shame. I’m not sure when or how but some day it will happen.